Insomnia
Another sleepless night. Its the scary thoughts again. I ignored it but still not working. I tried to sleep but I couldn't. Here I am writing my blog, killing time before the sun rises and makes everything much clearer and safe. Going to work in 5 hours without sleep, lets see if I can keep it up. Being awake since 1 am is not a fun thing to do. Got to find solution. Any idea from you guys would be great..Luckily I don't have class today as the teacher is attending a meeting...Hell yeah for one day :)
New Start..??? How many starts has it been..?
Back into the non-formal writing world, one of the reasons I like about blogs; you can write anything you want without worrying on any writing format you learnt in class, in any sort of language you want. Thats a good way to express yourself because it is your blog and you are the only one who care about it.
New start is a good way to forget the past and move on. But have we ever thought how many new starts has it been since we had the first one? What does it really imply? is it really a way for us to move on and forget awful things we did in the past? Or, is it a shortcut to run away from problems? When is it appropriate to have a new start? When we can't deal with troubles? Or when something can't be undone? I guess it depends on one's definition on how to answer these questions as there are no solid answers to these subjective thoughts. I wish there are solids answers so that we know what to do without being confused in any sort of way or being influenced by our emotion because God knows how emotional human beings are. Human is a complicated creature. Human have lots of stuff going on in his/her head, not like other creations, for example trees, they just live to nurture us without thinking whether they have to choose certain people to do it based on their emotional feelings. But we have to be grateful because with emotion and thoughts, we are the most superior creation in this world.
I admit that there have been few new starts in my life and each one of them has different reason and situation. I realized that not being able to express myself and be who I am were the main factors that make me the worst person among others. I could see how people think and react based on their own thoughts and feelings and they are really proud of it because they don't really care what other people think about them as long as the know they are doing the right thing. I depended too much on people before; letting them to tell me what to do, what they think, what they feel and what not. New starts for me this time means a new start of being the real me and be able to express myself anything in my own way regardless of what other might think about it.
Well, writing a blog is a good way to start. I might not be a good writer but who cares, this is blog and you can write whatever you want...:)
New start is a good way to forget the past and move on. But have we ever thought how many new starts has it been since we had the first one? What does it really imply? is it really a way for us to move on and forget awful things we did in the past? Or, is it a shortcut to run away from problems? When is it appropriate to have a new start? When we can't deal with troubles? Or when something can't be undone? I guess it depends on one's definition on how to answer these questions as there are no solid answers to these subjective thoughts. I wish there are solids answers so that we know what to do without being confused in any sort of way or being influenced by our emotion because God knows how emotional human beings are. Human is a complicated creature. Human have lots of stuff going on in his/her head, not like other creations, for example trees, they just live to nurture us without thinking whether they have to choose certain people to do it based on their emotional feelings. But we have to be grateful because with emotion and thoughts, we are the most superior creation in this world.
I admit that there have been few new starts in my life and each one of them has different reason and situation. I realized that not being able to express myself and be who I am were the main factors that make me the worst person among others. I could see how people think and react based on their own thoughts and feelings and they are really proud of it because they don't really care what other people think about them as long as the know they are doing the right thing. I depended too much on people before; letting them to tell me what to do, what they think, what they feel and what not. New starts for me this time means a new start of being the real me and be able to express myself anything in my own way regardless of what other might think about it.
Well, writing a blog is a good way to start. I might not be a good writer but who cares, this is blog and you can write whatever you want...:)
